I hate those times that I try to lie to myself while I deeply know the truth! 

I hate it when I wanna act careless but it actually doesn't feel like that

I hate it when I try to assent it's just so stupid

sometimes you just have to analyze everything and try to accept the truth!

somethings can change and somethings cannot change

never love something or someone so much except of two things that u can love as much as u want

1-God 2- Your self

Never be too nice! be nice but not toooo nice! ... 

Focus on yourself Love yourself as much as u can,think and do what is important for you

yes I know what you think right now! you think how selfish that girl is! but that's the truth

First you have to love yourself to be able to love others! If you Focus on you and try to figure out 

the real you, you 'll never get really jelouse of anyone!
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If there is anyone reading here and if that's a girl I have advice for you

don't waste your time on boys! 

yes you say its fun to mess with boys to have fun 

once you say hey haha let's be naughty in that moment you think of nothing except the fun you are having but boys are jerks yes I am sure all of them are jerks! of one little 3 seconds flashing they will make a huuge deal out of it! 

be careful on the internet don't say it's internet I am not gonna meet 95% of these people so let's just be bla bla or do bla bla! you'll never know what can happen

3 words DONT BE TROUBLE! it is big fun but there are also so many big better funs u can have

Boy friends are trouble at teenage years! they cant stop what they have in their pants but u can take control of ur feelings.

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HOLLYWOOD DOESN'T HAVE A HEART 


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that's the reality of right now!
just accept it! dont be so immature!
I hate judging people! when I have noooo idea!
for real this time I have no idea!
so I better stop even thinking about it
though I am freakin curious and  really wanna know
how much i want ___to be mine is so so stupid!
I just need to be myself and let that go

ppppppppstfuffffffffffffffff

there can be miracles when u believe
though hope is frail it's hard to kill
who knows what miracles u can achieve
when u believe somehow u will
u will when u believe

umm

plz dont be in love with someone else
plz dont have somebody waitin on you


_do u wanna have one?
_nope! u know I don't
_then why do u say that?
_donno! just feels right u know...weird but yeah
_I know I know! just make your eyes wide open girl u dont want trouble just be awake!
_yeah right
_all I know is I was enchanted to meet you!
_meet who?
_hey come on it just feels right meet...um meet?! well
_well well! ur gonna piss me off!
_heh chillax dude,love you allot
_:)

wth

-what da hell is wrong with u?
-what? nothin...I jus wanna be me
-so be it
-tryin to
-believe it
-i do
-love it
-for sure
-love u
-metoo

I belong to everyone while I dont belong to anyone

It's hard... when u feel it too you know it too you got it too but you don't wanna show it yeah it's hard to resist it!
you wonder why not to tell them like they tell me and everyone but you just can't u still wanna keep it secret u still
believe in the thing u said to urself when that happened for the first time!...you feel it too
but you dont wanna tell! they feel it too and tell like...whatever I just say it's hard

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it's there u got it u know it it's there u feel like u've ruined it but no dont judge
be good stay beautiful feel good u know it's there u believe it that's real
hard to resist u dont wanna tell...like the movies but not like them same feeling but not
an ACT!
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maybe u belong with me?!
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I can describe my feeling like:dance,happiness,faith,angriness,weird,weird,weird.
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don't let any of ur chances slip! try to not to be regretful ever!

I love me

shower yes shower!!!!!!

whatever

it's been a long time I haven't written here! school is going good! I mean I'm just realizing that what I'm having is what I wanted! in middle school I always wanted to go to school calmly with no stress without my mind full with stupid thoughts!being the real me! with my mind open for the things I want to focus on! ....and you know no it's what I have! I am so glad I made that decision... it all started with our school trip to tabriz! I gained lots of good and useful experiences! it's not about the trip or tabriz! it's about me and the friends...! lol yeah I call them " the friends"! anyway...! thank you God for always helping me to open my eyes wide to see not watch! and you know there are a lot of things that I have to thank you for! so I'm just gonna say thanks for eveything! hehe :D
I am always the kind of person who wants to experience everything! ( eeyy dont gemme wrong I'm not trouble kind :p) I mean I try to be evey type of human! I wanna feel how it is to be a famous person,be a dork,be the nerd of the class,be the lucky person,be the bitch, be a boy,be the goodie 2 shoes one!,the rich and the poor one! I mean I wanna feel and understand how do they feel! weird huh? and NO I am not gonna be really a bitch or really be each one of types I said! there are other ways that u can experience them!

last kiss mixed up with hope!!!!! what??

sometimes it's just hard to resist! when you see you are not where u wanna be,you are not who u wanna be,you dont do what u wanna do ...! people always know when is the right moment and what is the right thing to say! but they never do and say the right things at the right moment! it's like there is a fear of make things done at the right moment in them! and they will regret it later ... this is one of the reasons that u always have to be fearless! people deeply know they can do it! and deeply know " why not?" but something in the back of their minds always tells them " nahh that's like impossible" or " good to be true" it makes them to have the lack of confidence! they deeply know what is so important for them but just because of that thing back of their mind and that lack of confidence,they try to resist it! they try to tell them noh that's not important that won't happen I better let it go..." they do this with all the big things that they want...!
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I see people talking too much shit! it's like they don't have a brain! it's like they are NOTHING! heartless mindless soulless! just so... * sigh* that's the time I need to scream the time I need to say" Fuck" the time I need to insist on "F" in that word! the time I wanna cry! the time that .... uhh I dunnooo.... etc.
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music saves my life!
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I'll perform in madison square garden! yeah! u'll see........

P.S: no idea about the title!... it just kinda feels right!!!!

U don't need premission,U need initiative!

yup what the title says...! you just have to stop complaining and stop wasting your time,instead of wondering and  asking stupid questions! After a certain age practically everyone begins to lose his or her sense of personal causation. In other words our sense of self-efficacy is undermined. Undermined by what?Statements such as:

• This is too hard
• This costs too much
• I'm not good enough
• They don't want me to succeed anyway
• If only I had as much money as so and so
• I don't have that kind of luck
• I don't have the right looks
• Don't quit your day job
• Just be grateful that you have a job at all
• This is too good to be true

Etc., etc., etc.

Statements like those are the roots of a "lack" mentality and a poverty consciousness.
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you know that you can do anything! but there is probably something stupid there behind ur brain telling you " that's too good to be true" or " it seems impossible" what u have to do is to shut that whisper thingy up! and believe in yourself! people who are always succeful have self confidence and if u wanna be a successful person,u have to believe in urself! if u don't then you should forget all the success and dreams that u want? how does dat seem to u?
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never say "keep fighting" say " keep going or carry on doing ur thing" instead! cuz " fighting" is kinda negative... u get what I mean?
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My friend, whatever door you are knocking on, realize the doorknob is within reach. Just turn it and step into greatness.

BIG

grow up,study,study.study,enter to university,get a job,get married,have a baby,etc.! is that life??? what is that boring thing? I dont call it LIFE!!! goooooshshshshs! I hate this kind o boring stupid life everyone is having! I'm gonna do big things I can't stand this stuff!!!! I'm gonna make each of my dreams come true! not let them go and forget them! ...

if u can really imagine and feel yourself there you are halfway there!


Think Big,Dream Big,Feel Big,Do Big,Go big, and u'll be Big!


I mean to rrreally be wathca wanna be!
Live the life you dream of!
you can do anyyyyyyything!

*sniff*

uugh I have a cold now! I didn't go to school today! it's 10:23 am! my mom is angry at me like so bad! hehe! but hey I couldn't sit and listen to the teacher in the class while I just wanna sniff my nose out ...! actualy today is my fave day at school! because we have biology chemistry english and religion! it means all my favorite subject except for religion! when I don't go to school everyone act like I did a very bad BIG thing! it's just ONE day that I absent cuz of having a COLD! ...

ps: I really like these handmade friendship bracelets! I'm tryn to make one! I 'm not daat good at making handmades cuz I get bored LOL!

hmmm...

some ppl are kind and some ppl are conceited! the ones that are conceited always get kindness but the ones who are kind are always alone!...
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private schools are junk! :( they don't let us bring cellphones and mp3s or anything! and also we have those stupid uniforms! they check our nails every monday to see whether or not they are polished! we can't brings cds or dvds! uughghgh :-& only thing to do is to study your lessons BLA BLA BLA!!! the only thing that's good about it is that they have good teachers that teach very well! public skul is betta ...
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I need do express my self... lemme tell u somethin! always be urself don't care if others say youre not cool, don't conform to what they say is cool! just stay urself and follow what's important for u!

*yawn*

I luv my Vampire side,
so sweet like red hot chillies
so smooth like tiger's cuspidz
so lovely like the revenge
so good when they don't find you
It's just so weird what I feel now...
writin these kinda poems are how I'm tryna vent all the bad upsettin energies I get.you just have to get it out....somehow...anyhow!
just get it out without harmin urself or anybody else! you can listen to loud music,you can write how you feel or draw something weird or write weird poemz! you can scream in your pillow etc.
and also take'em easy! ;)
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hey ya know what? I don't have school for tomorrowww it's holidayyy YaYy HuRrAyY LOL

:-|

you know there is always a class which is called" the class of morons" and that's which I am in this year!!! oh and plus I am going to an only girls school! (where I live boys school and girls schools are apart!)...the girls who sit front of me are always kidding and hitting each other then when one of 'em gets hurt she gets mad and huffs... and just so childish stuff! girls behind me are talkin bout boys most of the time or their cellphone gadflies!!!!!!!....!
and backsatbbing is girls fave hubby!!! they do it allllll the time! I just get sick of this bullshits...! :(
and don't think that I am talkin behind their backs  here! I just need to vent these somewhere! and this the only place I do it! ...
pfffff....I am b0red!

1st post!

Heey :) !
so this is the 1st post in ma blog! I've had afew blogs B4 but not on blogger!...here is like my diary! I write whatever I feel I need to write here! so it's random! and if u wanna know more bout me check out the complete profile ;)
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I'm a 9th grader,2day was the 5th day of school! it's so dammnnn borring! there are 3 classez with 36 students each! I have friendz and I already have made 3 new ones!...but we are not like really friends we just hang out a little! all my good friends are the ones that I  have on the internet and unfortunately we are from different towns!...I am very good at my lessons! but I have no decision or anything including them! most of my classmates study for the universtiy entrence! buutttt that is not my thing I mean it is but not here,there... I should've gone to la performing arts school this year not here...or even a normal school but THERE NOT HERE! ... my everything is just there...!