pfsht

oh dude I am disappointed in my self now -.-
I have no life! -.- 
Ive been on internet since 12 and now it's almost 4! -.-
I didn't do anythin very special -.-
urgh I hate them -.- not really... just for now ... dislike is better than hate -.-
it's not their fault -.-
Its not mine either-.-
I cant blame anyone on this-.-
OMG-.-
Fakes-.-
its not their fault -.- it is kinda! -.- well yeah -.- uh *sigh*-.- pfsht-.-
just anotha curious teenager -.- with no fuckin life -.- but this one! -.- yeah I can blame myself-.-
thats my fault -.-no self harming nopes -.- just...


a shower would work
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PS:i aint gon be like that! there is one person remaining!

sweet 16

16 years have passed...

it's going to be 1390! i'm like so what?! it's just a number 89 turnin to 90!

it could be turning to 1490! and our years would chnage each 1000 year! 

or we could maybe count each 365 days one month! or 3 years! ... it's something we have made up for ourselves to just dont get lost ...maybe...

I'm feeling pointless 
I dont know what to do
all i wanna do is to just dont waste the time
but how thats the question

I have downloaded some books to read but I'm not feelin like readin anything

I need some new music! but urgh I dont want my charge to get finished this soon -.-

I dont know what to do! I dont know what I wanna do! I am so fucking confused about everything

everybody telling me this year your choice is going to be for the rest of your life

it's like I'm panicked! I dont wanna act so relax and happy anymore

this fucked up mask needs to fade away

I dont wanna act all nice'n smily  just to avoid ruining others life!

I'm not sayin blaaah I am an emo I think about cutting myself everyday blah no I am friendless

I am never happy! of course I am happy! but who is happy always? no one! 

there are times I was so sad about to break in tears but I swallowed it just to stop ruining the moment! I'm not always that happy girl that is always herself! sometimeS i am not myself too

I dont wanna be nice to people who dont give a shit about me!

I dont want to care if I will ruin other people's time if i do this say that or what! grawr i'm angry right now! lets try to fix this up how am i gonna use my time the best!

1-I could make handcrafts! 

2-I could read books

3-I could get new music

4- go out with my friends

5- learn how to jerk advanced

6- study! well this should be for the last days of holiday

7- practice singing!
8- friendship bracelets

9- go find any special place in here to go to!hopefully ...

10-commeee onnn one moreeee what can i do? OH!buy news movies to watch :D

11-i just rememberd one thing! to research about majors! and studying abroad!
thats it i guess!
so for now! I guess I can make cool stuff for my room :) 

*breathing deeply* * calm down* *it's gon be ok* 

=)

these days! we are getting closer to new year!...i love spring! not  as much as i love summer and winter tho! but it has its own special feeling! it can be kinda boring either...

i love new year just beuz of holidays! and shopping! ...

I'm confused! I have to choose a major after holidays! I have no idea -.-

everyone says u have to choose what u love ! its ur own choice! but in another way they talk like there are only 2 majors > maths and experimental sciense! BLAAAAAH

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u got every right to a beautiful life! just be yourself and dont fucking care about what others would think of you SERIOUSLY YOO!
just LOOK AT YOU! YOU ARE YOUNG and you are scared! STOP being paralyzed! STOP swallowing your worlds! STOP caring what other people think! SAY WHAT UWANT WEAR WHAT U WANT Listen to the music U want to! Play it LOUD as fuck and dance to it!Go out in midnight and forget u have school tomorrow ! STOP waiting for friday! DO IT NOW! LIVE NOW!take risks tell secrets! THIS LIFE IS YOURS!

ok? ok? I WANT THIS MESSAGE UNDERSTOOD!

C'mon

Dude you thought we were makin fun of you laughin at you you felt embarrassed didnt u? yeah I can tell u did but hey dont ever do again you are too cute to watch yeah you are u have no idea u make me smile i dont even know you but just stop that attitude tho it's cute :D
yeah you who0o0olly cute dude:D
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I am stressed out right now let me eXplain my feelings!
I am hyped becuzzz the situation is hyping! there is nothin special but it feels like there is,I am totally stressed out  guess why? yeah ...tomorrow is Thursday which means we are gon have 270 minutes maths class plus 90 minutes physics yeah dont u freak out even reading this? dont say no dont say!and I am confused cuz I wanna skip school tomorrow why? becuz I dont want to go to school tomorrow! :-/
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 *when God made the first woman* God:woman,you can find nice men in everycorner of the world. and then he made earth a circle that has no corner ;-/ LOLz
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I wanna see u again bish u dont efin care :(
cuz u dont efin know
and I do efin wanna meet you
you efin make me smile
but I dont efin know you