rescue me

this time keeps going so fast
and i cannot go back
is this even real
feels like im in a dream
watching my life going on without me
let me in let me be
its like i dont care
but deep inside im burning like fire
i keep watching
watching everything i wanna be
and watching every chance i need
slips away from my hands
because i had no power to hold it
because i have become comfortably numb
because because i need to be survived

so rescue me from everything
i just wanna live
i wish i could breathe
take my hands
pull me up
let me in let me be
rescue me from everything
i just wanna live'
i wish i could breathe

this weakness needs to fade away
my screams need to be heard
this light needs to be shone
and this world needs to be changed
so take my hand
pull me up
rescue me
let me in,let me be

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how is it?i dont like it really...! 
i am confuseeeed! 
i probably should write about confusion later...

i luv Muse!

That is just soo annoying :/ 

well I understand that tho...but still...annoying :/ but ppsshtt ...who cares right? no lets not pretend this time! I CARE! hmmm...! that is really turning me off -.-that's ignoring...and annoying -.-

ohmaygawdd I am overreacting again! -.-.-.-.-.-.-

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I wanna meet someone NEW! with NEW everything! everyone seems just the same...boring!

someone different...

its raining these days! but I cannot go out and walk in the rain and the rest...

why?becuzz of some reason u wont understand...

DUDE THAT WAS...OHGAWD LETS FORGET IT ...:/:/:/--.--

*IJMJBTDANDHDNAB*

um!!!!

Have u ever felt like you wanted something so bad and you didnt have the guts to try to get it but once u tried
and succeed and now that u have it u dont feel like you want it and you feel like how dumb you were before dreaming over this
but again u feel like dumbass u have this now why dont u do anythin try crazy things and give a chance to this!
but then again u feel like no dont be a dumbass!!! it can be dangerous! and not like how u wanted it! it can get serious
and hurt you! but another feeling comes like OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!i actually have done it!!!wow! its like ur stomach is exactly in ur mouth and its turning greeeen! and u have this kind of excitement but a u feel like its a lame excitement in another way its really cool! and its like u wanna keep dream about it and u can make it come true but u dont want it to be true and u want
this to stay like a dream for you!and then school and studies and ur nerdy feeling comes up and there u go u ruin it!u ruin this thing u got! u just cut it and brush it off and delete it and like i mean try to forget it!and suddenly its like what did u just do? what the fuck have u just done? and it's like now u feel calm but u need a bang head on the wall thing!this is whats called confusion!
and u eat ur nails! u know it kinda helps!trying to listen to a music u can relate to...!... none really...
! turn on AYWR!
CATCH ME IM FALLING
ITS LIKE THE GROUND IS CRUMBLING UNDERNEATH MY FEET
WONT U SAVE ME
OH OH BABY I MISSIN U SO MUCH CANT HELP IT IM IN LOVE ...urgh blah ! no it doesnt work next song...Rainin men

U GOT ME MISTAKEN THINKIN U GON GET IT EASY
FRIST OF ALL U NEED TO KNOW THAT IM NOT THE ONE
IF U THINK UR GETTIN SOMETHIN BABY U AINT GETTIN NONE... not really next...love the way u lie
JUST GONNA STAND THERE AND WATCH ME BURN DATS ALRIGHT BCUZ I LIKE THE WAY IT HURTS
JUST GONNA STAND THERE AND HEAR ME CRY BUT DATS ALRIGHT BCUZ I LOVE THE WAY U LIKE I LOVE THE WAyU LIE...NO next dont give a damn

i dont give a damn whatchu say bout that i dont give it up i dont give a damn watchu say bout that
u know im not gonna cry for some stupid guy guy who thinks he is all that!...um...next 
...

im terrified of what i do my stomach grins just when i think about u
run far away so i can breath even tho ur so far from suffocatin me
I feel so dumb just thinkin about what ive done
its not me you her him or anyone to blame
so I guess now you shouldn't run faraway
just know that i want this dream to stay
just the way it was before
and for now this thing needs to be screwd up
cuz im gettin bored of this shit
screw you ;)






 

I aint sense

I dont know what the F I am doing
dont except me to be sense cuz I aint
I feel so shallow these days
I am confused
I need a guide! a good guide! so...God u be my guide! yep thnx!
*_*
Some days I just wanna up and call it quits,
I feel like I'm surrounded by a wall of bricks,
Every time I go to get up I just fall in pits,
My life's like one great big ball of shit,

If I could just put it all in to all I spit,
'Stead I always try an' swallow it,
Instead of staring at this wall and shit,
While I sit writers block sick of all this shit,
Can't call it shit,

all I know is I'm about to hit the wall,
If i have to see another backstabbin bitch
This is it, last time, that’s all, that’s it,
I ain't dealin' widdanother fuckin' politic,

I'm like a fish in a tong
needing to get out since a long fucking time
but I guess no one is caring
what the hell I'm doing and whatthehell i wanna be
I guess its time
the time to stop waiting and get up and jump out of it
but the problem is its so fucking damn high
I need a rope or something to catch it'n up
you'd think all I do it sit here and complain bout my life
well Imma show u what u gon feel my rush
You don't feel it then it must be too real to touch,
Peel the dutch, I'm about to tear shit up,
Goosebumps, yeah, I'ma make ya hair sit up,
Yeah, sit up, I'ma tell ya who I be,
I'ma make you hate me, 'cause you ain't me,
You wait, it ain't too late to finally see,
What you close minded fucks were too blind to see,
Whoever finds me's gonna get a finder's fee,
Out this world, ain't no one out they mind as me,
It's always me, how dark can these hallways be?
The clock strikes midnight, 1, 2, then half-past 3,
This half-assed homework with this half-assed piece a' paper,
then all I talk its like I'm talking to myself
there aint no othere feelin like this
if there is come and tell me so I know I aint the only one feelin this shit

Yeah 3x

If I could kill someone in my mind it would be our school master (mod or wuteva u call it)
why the heck should I take these tests every day when they wont really effect on my Gradcard -.-
Screeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwww thisssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

i try to dgaf

anothapost

Here I am again hey with my another bullshit post! HA! naw I like my posts!...
I am sitting in my room,it's like 7:15 pm I guess!my door is closed,it's dark in my room no lights on
except the light of my pc!and the lil light of my cellphone winking at me it means someone has messaged me or misscalled...
I am watching a movie romance u could tell and now it's the part where the girls is saying" I dont care what ur gonna be next year
I dont care if ur crazy,God i just know i wanna be with you,I dont understand what ur doing (the girl starts crying,the guy
is about to!)it seems so pointless i mean everything it just seems pointless but when im with you its different,and i donno why
and now there they start kissing! I gotta turn off the sound since my door is closed and parents in the living room
so I dont want any weird sounds going out from my room! oh and they are kissing like so wild!and now there is when they fuck each other!
I am chewing  some nuts ... and i'm thinking there is always a perfect girl that everyone wanna be her but she'll get fucked up
and messed up just because of a guy! it's always some guy in there the reason of her miserability! and most of the time
that guy is a "nobody'! a miserable poor guy oh yeah but he is always hot and cute! and other than in movies in real life its
kinda the same!jus sometimes! oh i just saw the message! my friend messaged me that she is going to pee! this friend of mine always messages
me these kind of stuffs that dont really have an answer to replay! then she gets mad like " are u dead? why dont u replay?"
hah! oh man people in japan! you have no idea how much I wanna help them! but I just cant I have no money!...YET!...i dont understnad
why ppl dont care...its like they see them in TV but they are atleast like" awwwww poor them god helps them" and thats all!
I just cant stand like that but I have to! God you help them! i know u do! so yeah keep doin ur thing...anyway where were we?!
oh yeah the princess and the miserable guy!everyone says follow ur heart! but heart always lies!directs you to that bad  way
its people's own fault if they are in trouble or anything! they have nobody to blame but themselves! whatever goes around comes around
KARMA! yeah...! watch out ur mind ppl! watch what ur thinkin about...! js