um!!!!

Have u ever felt like you wanted something so bad and you didnt have the guts to try to get it but once u tried
and succeed and now that u have it u dont feel like you want it and you feel like how dumb you were before dreaming over this
but again u feel like dumbass u have this now why dont u do anythin try crazy things and give a chance to this!
but then again u feel like no dont be a dumbass!!! it can be dangerous! and not like how u wanted it! it can get serious
and hurt you! but another feeling comes like OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!i actually have done it!!!wow! its like ur stomach is exactly in ur mouth and its turning greeeen! and u have this kind of excitement but a u feel like its a lame excitement in another way its really cool! and its like u wanna keep dream about it and u can make it come true but u dont want it to be true and u want
this to stay like a dream for you!and then school and studies and ur nerdy feeling comes up and there u go u ruin it!u ruin this thing u got! u just cut it and brush it off and delete it and like i mean try to forget it!and suddenly its like what did u just do? what the fuck have u just done? and it's like now u feel calm but u need a bang head on the wall thing!this is whats called confusion!
and u eat ur nails! u know it kinda helps!trying to listen to a music u can relate to...!... none really...
! turn on AYWR!
CATCH ME IM FALLING
ITS LIKE THE GROUND IS CRUMBLING UNDERNEATH MY FEET
WONT U SAVE ME
OH OH BABY I MISSIN U SO MUCH CANT HELP IT IM IN LOVE ...urgh blah ! no it doesnt work next song...Rainin men

U GOT ME MISTAKEN THINKIN U GON GET IT EASY
FRIST OF ALL U NEED TO KNOW THAT IM NOT THE ONE
IF U THINK UR GETTIN SOMETHIN BABY U AINT GETTIN NONE... not really next...love the way u lie
JUST GONNA STAND THERE AND WATCH ME BURN DATS ALRIGHT BCUZ I LIKE THE WAY IT HURTS
JUST GONNA STAND THERE AND HEAR ME CRY BUT DATS ALRIGHT BCUZ I LOVE THE WAY U LIKE I LOVE THE WAyU LIE...NO next dont give a damn

i dont give a damn whatchu say bout that i dont give it up i dont give a damn watchu say bout that
u know im not gonna cry for some stupid guy guy who thinks he is all that!...um...next 
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im terrified of what i do my stomach grins just when i think about u
run far away so i can breath even tho ur so far from suffocatin me
I feel so dumb just thinkin about what ive done
its not me you her him or anyone to blame
so I guess now you shouldn't run faraway
just know that i want this dream to stay
just the way it was before
and for now this thing needs to be screwd up
cuz im gettin bored of this shit
screw you ;)