*sadface*

:( it's 4:05 pm the day after tomorrow I have chemistry exam I have studied but there are still 2 lessons remaining! ...I look like a mess& my room is a mess aswell! I feel so awkward!
I wanna go out and have a walk in the park...and I want it to be cloudy and rainy a little! but sun gr it just wont go away...when school is going to end :((:((:(( i know 24th khordad 7 exams remaining...but the good thing is " maths is done" phew.... u know what will make me feel better?!
a rainy weather with alot of thunder music preferly muse big black eye glasses and a big cap& comfort chair to just sit and think! and cry to let all the badfeelings out 'n then a friend who understands...

lets not hide our feelings-itsux

luvYos3lf

Loving urself is not being selfish or self centered! if u love urself it doesnt mean that you dont love others! when u say u dont love urself or you hate ur self you are not being humble! you are being stupid! no one can actually love anyone esle "truly" if he cannot love himself! all the lack of self confidence or jealousy is because of not loving urself!

choose urself first then others! its YOU first! think about YOU first! and this doesnt mean that u are not considerate!it is actually being considerate about yourself!

be yourself and love it! cuz thats what u are! ur true friends will like you for the real you! 

be nice as much as u can :) actually when u love urself u wont get mad that much...! try it! u'll C!
it so annoying and so fucking damn wrong that ppl think if u love urself u are selfish! seriously its so different...! and have u noticed that when someone asks u tell me about ur self most of people say i dont know ask others! they are not being humble! that is annoying! if u donno urself then how can others actually know the real u? or when they ask u do u think ur smart?nice? some say i dont know others should tell! and if someone says" yes I am pretty smart and yes I am a nice person" most ppl will say" how selfish" gosh that is annoying! UPDATE UR MIND PPL

home sweet home

its wednesday 8:13 pm im listening to " i'll be by Edwin Mccain" physics is on my desk with my pens and a newspaper with a waterbottle and my cellphone! and i need to pee ... but anyway!

i wanna write about the trip to yazd! yes the 3nights and 4 days trip to Yazd i told before :)

well it was the best trip ever! 

friday i woke up at almost 9 am! 

then i packed my stuff while i was doing it i was remembering the stuff to put in! 

and also i was trying to put new music in my cellphone! 

USB got f-d up and it kept saying" memory is not available" 

seriously i was so mad about to cry!!! :D so what i did was " Goddddd come onnnnnn this one time just let me do this let  it connect plz plzplz " and i remembered i can stick it from the back of the case too! so there u go I did it and it connected! but if i put it anywhere instead of my hands it would disconnect i was like" MOM COME ON GET IT FOR A SECOND" 15 mins later 

mom: not done yet?

me: no just one more song

mom:hurrrrryyyyy

me:ok ok 

*pheewwww* done!

i went to check out my facebook :D then guess what i saw my old friend since elementry school that is in abroad right now online! hah of course i started to chat and its 10:30 i havent taken a shower yet! i have to be at school at 1:30! (i usually take 1 hour and a half in the bathroom)

my mom came yelling at me " what are u doiing? WHAT? ARE YOU CHATTING? GOD GIRL YOU ARE SO CALLM FOR URSELF GET YO' ASS OUTAA UR CHAIR AND TO BATHROOM"

so i turned off the pc and ate a lil breakfast and bathrooooommmmmmmm finally!

done bathing at 11:45 then getting ready and my mom helped me packing stuff(i guess she did the most of it lol) i was so nervous and anxious and excited and happy! i felt like i was about to throw up! but it was a good kind of being nervous u know :D and the other good thing was that my close internet friend was coming to yazd so we could meet could it be better?

my friends and I planned to misscall each other when we started to go to school :D so i saw Reyhane 's message' MOVE"!!! :D lol and after gettting stuff done we called a taxi to go to schooool and my mom came with me ! i said a usual goodbye to my dad and mom! :D u know im not that kind of emotional person hugging crying kissing  like ohmygaawwwd mommaaa daddyyy i'll miss u!-.-

its just 3 nights -.- so we arrived there and everything my mom wanted to stay till our bus was going to go to train station but i said no! i arrived and see woah! :D all the moms and dads and sibling were there :D we met each other! (me.Reyhane,Nazanin,Sulmaz) our group to the trip! after getting our dinners that was a sandwich(baken with coca cola!) we went in the bus and i saw some of girls crying and getting emotional and moms crying :D dude! -.-

i picked up my usual school bag (its big) and a lil bag for very useful stuff like my cellphone,money,cream...:D

but my friends all brought big sacks :) we were all excited so happyyyy...it was this feeling so rare :D in the bus we were telling each other that we hope its gonna pass by there so we could see him for the last time before Yazd :D :)):)):)) but it didnt! whatever!(awwwww)we arrived at the train station! so awesome! alot of boys! a few hotties :D i could hardly breathe cuz my bag was too heavy haha! we arriivedd in the traaiin finalllyyyyyyyy....thank godddddddd
and we had alot and alooot of fun in train! we laughed alot that those guys who worked there was getting angry! tho he did get seriously mad and went and told to Ms.Rasi about it... stupid assholes...! we took alota funny pics called some boys:D we saved all the numbers we got for these 3 days to call them! we wanted to get a special SIM for this job but we couldnt :D so we planned to do it with our cells! 2 for me 2 for her and 2 for her and her :D they were mostly so CHOOOOOOSSSSSSSSSSSSSSsSsSsSsSsS hayyyy vaye man...! after having our dinner and stuffff we arrived in Yazd at i guess it was 10:30 pm or somethin! we went out of the train here we go lots of boys again:D they were waving and we waved back it was night and dark  and iwas sleepy so i couldnt recognize if there were any hotties really...! in the bus! lots of trouble caused by bags and sacks.what a good feeling it was...finally arrived going to the hotel...! we arirved and it was sooo awesome! seriously the hotel was really good and u know those kind of high classes:D our room was ready a 4bed room! ...
u know what i really need to pee now ima write the rest later!

pointless but full of points

walking on the streets
woah look they are diggin again duno why...ouch...u know earth is so nice!!!
thinking...why ppl have made everything so hard for them! they made it like this themselves and they are complaining about it  we could change it but i said WE...
thinking...wow the least important things are becoming the most important ones i wanna be a teenager adluts! im nothing like you f-off
thinking...why teachers are always the same here...why they dont  try to actually connect with each student!why they dont accept they can be wrong sometimes too!! (most of them its like...whatever)
today was a good day
as usual waking up at 6:20
WC till 6:30
putting on school uniform and stuff...6:45
schl cab arrived 6:50
at school 7:00
i loose the time by here
oh nooo i dont wanna listen to the sucky principal's speech
hiding in the last floor's stairs with friends *phewww* skipped
then its arabic! we did a few excersices ...she is always like hyper and happy! its kinda annoying
it's physics...there is this doctor checking students...* come on kids 5 each time"
she was an afghan dr! she was so cute lol she had this accent we didnt get what she was sayin
then its maths...ohgawd i hate everykind of math! but algebra its kindaaaaa better
biology and the teacher every student is afraid of! the atmosphere goes wild lol everyones shaking skins going white like plaster!i put my head on the desk and started day dreaming
Reyh:Negin negin
me: what
oooooooooooooops! class staring at me!
Rahimi:YOU come up here
ME:yes
Rahimi:and the one behind you
me and nasrin!
Rahimi:why do you sleep in my class?
Me:no i wasn't sleeping i just put my head on the desk
Rahimi:WELL YOU MOST NOT DO THAT!THAT IS DISRESPECTFUL
and Nasrin why were u sleeping?
Nasrin:I have a headache me'am!
Rahimi:ok now both of you are good students but you should be also respectful to my class biology is sacred!now both of you go sit at ur seats!

DUUUUUDEEE she was nice this time! hah PHEW thnk god

then we went to the community room becuz we are going to go to a 3days schooltrip to Yazd! ;)

FINALY 2:15 SCHOOL IS OVAAA! dont be happy so much becuz tomorrow its THURSDAY and u know what that means right? 270 mins maths +80 mins physics!

and in the carpool...we passed by there...:):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):) <3333333333
best part of the day! 'nd the dumbest

UDONNO ME DON FUCKIN JUDGE ME IFU DO WELL I DONT GIVE A FUCK

THATS JUST TOO DUMB AND TOO ATTRACTIVE WHATEVER IT IS IM ENJOYING IT SO YEAH!