16 years have passed...
it's going to be 1390! i'm like so what?! it's just a number 89 turnin to 90!
it could be turning to 1490! and our years would chnage each 1000 year!
or we could maybe count each 365 days one month! or 3 years! ... it's something we have made up for ourselves to just dont get lost ...maybe...
I'm feelingI dont know what to do
all i wanna do is to just dont waste the time
but how thats the question
I have downloaded some books to read but I'm not feelin like readin anything
I need some new music! but urgh I dont want my charge to get finished this soon -.-
I dont know what to do! I dont know what I wanna do! I am so fucking confused about everything
everybody telling me this year your choice is going to be for the rest of your life
it's like I'm panicked! I dont wanna act so relax and happy anymore
this fucked up mask needs to fade away
I dont wanna act all nice'n smily just to avoid ruining others life!
I'm not sayin blaaah I am an emo I think about cutting myself everyday blah no I am friendless
I am never happy! of course I am happy! but who is happy always? no one!
there are times I was so sad about to break in tears but I swallowed it just to stop ruining the moment! I'm not always that happy girl that is always herself! sometimeS i am not myself too
I dont wanna be nice to people who dont give a shit about me!
I dont want to care if I will ruin other people's time if i do this say that or what! grawr i'm angry right now! lets try to fix this up how am i gonna use my time the best!1-I could make handcrafts!
2-I could read books
3-I could get new music
4- go out with my friends
5- learn how to jerk advanced
6- study! well this should be for the last days of holiday
7- practice singing!8- friendship bracelets
9- go find any special place in here to go to!hopefully ...
10-commeee onnn one moreeee what can i do? OH!buy news movies to watch :D
11-i just rememberd one thing! to research about majors! and studying abroad!
thats it i guess!
so for now! I guess I can make cool stuff for my room :)
*breathing deeply* * calm down* *it's gon be ok*
2 comments on "sweet 16"
hey hny!
sure everythin's gonna B OK if u just search a little more abt choosin ur major. as u know 1st of all ur favorite sub matters 2nd ur talent these r really important. think deeply in urself n find ur biggest talent n go on. the 3rd n 4th n.. r trashes. like n talent r valuable in choosin a major my sweetie.
actually i was thinkin abt goin to a coffee shop with a dude...sure i've found her! whenever u got bored, bet i can help ya dude.
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